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Edited on Mon Nov-28-11 04:19 PM by freshwest
Visited, anyway. And their focus is on the food, not getting stupefied. No idea where these songs came from. The beer song along with the ant song seemed to be about learning to count down wards.
As far as the drinking goes, I never got into it regularly, had bad feelings about from knowing it had destroyed my family; perhaps a lack of ability to love destroyed them, as I know some families that have survived the insanity. But it left gaping holes in my life and took the minds and health and lives of people I have loved.
When I did partake the luxury, it was when I was either angry or depressed. Since I have a high tolerance for alcohol, from prenatal exposure or genetics, I guess, it required a lot of whiskey, consumed quickly to get the effect, which was actually self-medicating.
I soon realized a logical fallacy in my intended 'drinking career.' Obviously, I was having an emotional or life problem that I didn't want to face, or didn't have the patience or skills to work out. Another element was fear of failing and fear of succeeding, going into unknown territory. I considered why I would be willfully sabotaging my own life. Consuming the alcohol had no effect on the cause of my distress, only put off my work to solve it.
For about six months, I went about deliberately drinking as a social outlet, even going to a certain bar on Sunday. That gave me pause, as the little angel or devil on my shoulder, take your pick, warned me that was something 'alcoholics' did. Although I did my heaviest and actually dangerous amounts of drinking alone.
I knew if I continued down that road, I would develop a second problem without solving the first problem that led me to drink to escape it. I dropped drinking altogether and got involved with more constructive things. I'm not saying that works for everyone.
I thought the thread was going to make it to 99... It may still do so...
:hi:
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