so, my ex got married this weekend. [View all]
the whole thing is kinda surreal. he is def a very different person.
it bummed me a bit because i am alone and very lonely. but what got me was the pics of my kids together.
esp son who came in from utah, to mich. he doesnt talk to me. i havent seen him in 5 years. i barely recognized him. they were so awesome in the pics, hugging each other, sibling love extraordinaire.
they still all have good relations w him.
since they never did as kids, he didnt give a shit, and i did all the emotional work, well, it just sucks.
and this part is truly petty on my part, but do any other divorcees get jealous of widows/widowers? my sister lost her hubs several months ago, very suddenly. the family rallied around her, and did a lot for her.
the situations are very different, but sometimes i feel like saying- hey, over here, i lost my husband and my kids too.
but i got money, so i must be fine. the fact that we started an urban farm together, and he bailed, and i am trying to make it go on my own w bad health and no partner, yeah, but i got plenty of money.
she, and several sibs, saw the pics on fb, and didnt bother to check in w me.
just ranting. i'll be fine in a few days. but it was a low point in a 5 year slog. i dont think about anniversaries or any of that. but this was a little too in my face.