Update: I am still clawing my way out of the doomspiral of the last weeks...

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Went to the ER Thursday and got antibiotics for a NASTY sinus infection. Blew it back into my ear on one side and had a scary moment that evening...my ear went fully deaf and was "full" and then I couldn't stand up, my whole body was leaning and I had to grab onto the table and wall to get to the couch and just sit for 5 mins. I even checked my face inmy phone camera to see if I was having a fuckin stroke! I was also having sharp pains in my left chest/armpit...guess it was my lymph node swollen. So yeah, the flu that turned on me. I swear, sometimes my body is trying to Kill me! :/

So I'm feeling more human nnow. Definitely botched this quarter/session with school...told my counselor I need to take the rest of the semester and get my mental health ok. It hasn't even been 6 months since the bitch tried to kill me so I can take a little longer to work on my shit. School's not going anywhere and even if Nazi47 kills the DOEd, it won't even matter ...

I have decided to treat my internet/phone like it's 1999. When it was all a novelty and we still "LIVED" mostly in the real world... Got stuff to do around here and I'm the only one to do it. Gotta get rid of the excessive crap she bought and try to recoup some costs... Also gonna get things tossed/prepped for storage, so we can paint this house and get it on the market by May/June. My daughter and her BF are coming out from NC to help with the last push in May/June...then they're gonna go find a nice trailer to put on my property and go off grid.

Anyway, just cleaning up after being sick for 2 weeks - it's been rough and there's literally a mountain of laundry to handle! ugh... But we put one foot in front of the other and somehow it all works out.

I can't do much more than try to keep my sanity and plan for whatever is coming down the pike....

So very grateful for this little corner of the interwebs and you guys Thanks for all the hearts too!