Do you ever get tired of complaining?

[kdmorris]

3. I try not to complain anymore

I still talk to my husband about it, and feel sometimes like he must get tired of hearing it (he assures me he doesn't), but I don't really talk to anyone else about it. When people ask how I'm doing, I usually assume that they don't really WANT to know and are just trying to be polite, so I don't tell them.

But it always goes through my head: "How am I doing? I feel like I've been hit by a fucking truck again. I'm always tired, so not much has changed, because I'm still tired. My hair is falling out again, my skin is dry and I'm gaining weight. I allowed myself to get stressed out at work, so my Ulcerative Colitis is flaring up and my blood sugar is 190. My joints ache for some unknown reason and it hurts to walk. I would go to a doctor to find out why my joints hurt, but they won't help me. Oh, yeah, and just because Mother Nature is a cruel mistress, my hormones are all fucked up, too. Other than that, I'm feeling great!"

I usually just go with the last part of that paragraph "I'm feeling great".