String of bad luck - close calls - how to process?

[lunatica]

33. Life can be harsh when it lets you know

you’re not Super woman!

Last December I fell in my condo and couldn’t get up. I was on the floor for three days thinking that if I rested a little I would be able to get myself up. At the time the worst part was the thirst. On the third day I called our building maintenance guy and he came over and talked me into calling 911. I was in the hospital for a few days. The paramedics and nurses were incredibly nice to me, for which I am truly grateful. After I came home one of the paramedics called to see how I was doing which was very nice! He told me to call 911 immediately if I fall again. That they’ll never force me to go to a hospital and that they’ll help me get up if that’s all I need.

Now I’m in the process of evaluating my vulnerabilities and thinking about what to do about my future. I’m 73 and really should make plans so I can be independent and only semi dependent on others, or some “place for mom” thing. I don’t have any family or close friends here and I really do need to make plans and arrangements for my end of life. My fall has forced me to think about it. I only hope my recovery doesn’t make me fall back into laziness about my life and where it’s headed, cause I’m definitely headed for death, no matter what.