Scapegoated for reporting

[MutantAndProud]

How many of you have seen instances where sociopaths pile on because a target is consider easy prey?

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2. That makes sense

I wish you well on your side of that journey… mine never ceases to amaze me

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4. Shining light on the situation

Does take a bit of effort and mental stamina, I documented for over a year and now they’re starting to claim victimhood because I wasn’t passive about finding contradictions. I take that as a good sign…

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7. Shoshana Zuboff is correct

Our system now is completely different from what it was in 2012, and 2008, 2007, 2001… 1999/2000.

I lost my anonymity due to it being forced. There is no way to undo that now, but de-anonymizing me was not something I take lightly and I am not afraid of bringing things as public as necessary to put an end to this and force the conversation into the public, as corrupt as some of the modern forums are.

Funnily enough, I was at a bar the other week during a rare visit out for Pride and someone forcibly downloaded Pokémon Go onto my phone without my knowledge or consent… I suppose to let me know they’re nearby and fully capable of remote control of the networks, for now. They will be found out.

Thank you for offering your words of support and encouragement.

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16. I think the coercive elements have definitely caused it to get worse

It’s nauseating. I have nausea for medical reasons as well but that’s not the point. I’ve seen it all my life. I’m not a woman but as a small guy and an easily preyed upon one I’ve had an insane amount of predators target me. They are so consistently broken I don’t even know where to start. I don’t actually advocate for wanton mass-tranquilizing (See Firefly and Serenity…) since I try to adhere to scientific principles and take each individual as they are… but there are so many weaseling their way into places they don’t belong. A lot of them don’t even know how to bond, they just turn into flocks of flying monkeys. I’ve sometimes been called out for mocking it instead of simply denouncing it but honestly neither approach actually works, they’re broken and keep breaking other systems and new generations ad nauseum. I’ve started working with someone to talk about the stress of it and set new goals. Leaving is an option… staying has cost me in a lot of ways.

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19. It's a major export right now

The global deregulation paired with coercion is not an accident, it’s the precursor to, basically, the new phase of the Nazi movement. With an increase in population comes an increase in potential recruits and people to beat down and deprive. The authoritarian communists aren’t any better. So, yeah, definitely standing my ground. Much like in WW2, sometimes they only respond to being taken out of power. There are more atrocities to uncover from the internet era’s fog of war, and things are not always as they seem when you don’t have a bird’s eye view. Old/bad compromises and radicalism of many varieties are a lifelong struggle we’re going to have to deal with.

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22. Stackexchange is pretty nice for clues and answers

I agree it’s nothing unique to one party or country… working on making peace with it being a natural occurrence and figuring out a plan to relocate somewhere more private away from this toxic crowd. There just isn’t much else to do besides making reports, gathering evidence when possible, and being a ‘squeaky wheel’ if necessary.

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24. It happens

I agree with a lot of what you say. My situation is slightly different, I actually enjoy being around people and sometimes certain crowds incognito, on the other hand groups have intentionally encroached into my life and personal spaces in very invasive ways making it nearly impossible to live while being fishbowled.

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27. It's not abnormal to become-

-sensitive to repeat stimuli. But I am in the same position. My methodology exposed the stimuli sources as needed and I rolled that back upon completion. I won’t say it’s ’all good’ (as you say, that would be bullshitting myself and you etc), because technology is leveraging the worst aspects of humanity. But it is a good choice to follow your gut feeling if withdrawing from some social zones reduces exposure to toxicity. They’ll always exist in some way or another. Unless you have specific people you want to stay in touch with or have to get through a few professional steps to tie up loose ends there’s really no harm in moving on to a different area.

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35. Looks like you are gone

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I am filing allegations of misconduct, malpractice, sexual and other harassment wrt most of what I have seen at all outside the routine between Dec 2012 and the present in India.

I am also filing allegations of both psychiatric malpractice and misconduct in human subject research wrt the period from 2000-2014, where applicable in the US.

I have no quarrels with the three labs I worked in, nor most of my doctors.

But the rest is deeply misogynistic, predatory and parasitic.

But I will proceed more neatly from here on out.

A serious complaint can be neatly organized, minimalistic and elegant.

If in addition to one’s usual workload, a complaint falls to one’s lot, one might as well go about it in an organized way.

It always angered me to have a repellent, encroaching, parasitic technology sucking away one’s life.

While no part of this will have any medical or academic utility, I am easier in my mind having decided how to proceed.

Last Edit: deleted most of my posts. Never liked to talk much about myself nor being conspicuous. Got goaded by jerks. Blech. Used to come here to talk bout plitics not myself. The species as a whole lacks the concept of balance.

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53. This is my last post on DU

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I already informed EarlG I am going offline.

The traffic I see on my street today after a week of respite when my brain recovered from the damage of the last 14 years indicates that the last govt was not the only source of a malicious nuisance distinct from ordinary traffic etc.

Darpa built the internet I forget how many decades ago. The internet is mostly a mess. It’s dynamics cannot bleed into the world this disgracefully -that too in India where gangrapes, stranger danger, stalking, harassment, acid attacks are relatively common.

I don’t come at it as someone like Slavoj Zizek would. (I was just rolling my eyes reading about him in Current Affairs yesterday - he sounds like a creep and a fraud. A fitting intellectual for the Idiocracy).

Most people here in India (Hindu, Muslim, Christian) like most people anywhere go about their lifes dully doing various dull things. They have the lives I wish I had.

The internet thrives on conflict and bullshit. Most of our science is turning into this bs. Medicalizing for sloppy psychiatry that eschews clean methods in data science or ai.

I am filing misconduct, malpractice and harasssment allegations wrt everything I have seen in India. My medical marijuana company and doctor do not need rubber stamps from corrupt private equity owned hospitals. The small businesses I support (vegan, clean food) do not need this.

Only fraudulent data miners and a”i” researchers and corrupt shrinks/state officials with no legitimate services or products need this.
It is all this bs these days and I am sick of the Indian govt and the local state govt not having had the common decency to shut off this street after one cancer patient has been left dead and I lost 15 years to this rapacious encroaching rot with no serious oversight and constant testing and encroachment.

I was a publicly funded scientist in the hard natural sciences. I was not a good scientist. I was pretty mediocre. But I was never a fraud nor a fool.

Then in 2011 I was unfortunate enough to get a job at one of those atrocious schools: Stanford, Harvard, MIT, Dartmouth, Brown, Princeton, Yale.

I had a breakdown there in Dec 2011 - the combination of the normal terror of scientists I respect like Prof Steve Chu noticing I exist potentially and the new terror of a classy of creepy perverts (Andy Rubin, Epstein connected types) I didn’t know anyone took seriously enough to throw away what are common sense informed consent and IRB protocols was too much.
My field is not like whatever Slavoj Zizek does. I find the people who excel in it scary even when they are nice. I was trying to quietly eke out an existence while doing a job I do love. And I didn’t want anyone to see as then people might think one goes around having breakdowns and I promise that was the last one. I use humor as a defense mechanism because I don’t know.
I was always a fairly happy person. I cannot see what is new here except I thought everyone had a clearer idea in the hard sciences of how no one does various cracked out things that just lead to awful spectacles and attract the attention of people like Slavoj Zizek, Steven Pinker and Jonathan Haidt.
I thought everyone in the hard sciences knew those guys and Milgram, Zimbardo, Substein, that power pose lady, Woebot etc are full of shit.

I never minded the unforgiving standards of hard science. I didn’t think it was unfair.

But I started losing the plot when you take Pichai, Zuckerberg etc seriously and all those nightmarish people.
Actual people who do that are like Jean Dreze or Medha Patkar or Yasha Levine (who is one of the best journalists out there)

So this punishing standard is acceptable till you bring in the frauds of Stanford Psychiatry all these spooky creepy bullshitters of
Google/Facebook/Palantir etc.

I was a normal stressed out postdoc and it was nothing spectacular.
My life was boring - no sex, infidelity. Importantly no misconduct. No racist or sexist attacks or lurid past.


But yeah I use marijuana and it has never affected me negatively. But this school was not to my taste. I would never sign up for something like that without strict IRB protocols and informed consent norms that do not treat discomfort in female scientists as an afterthought.

And I find it hard to speak in American I guess. I was seriously trying to have a quiet breakdown and get over it and then blend in.
I had a breakdown only at the thought of someone like Prof Chu seeing the hack like garbage that is my science. My mentors didn’t like my work. But they had gotten used to low expectations. Expanding that audience and in such high def potentially was. That was when my brain checked out.

But after that I found a whole new type of terror. Creepy people, charlatans who shill Reefer Madness and these shitty agents and LLMs.
Adam Becker said it. Ed Zitron gets it.

How is it that outside the narrow hard sciences except someone like Prof Chu, if a fraud like Pinker or Haidt or any of those creepy guys who like the sound of their own voices..yeah they make money and sell books but they are douchebags and frauds.
I thought of Jon Stewart just before my brain snapped. I think he represented common sense before it became this insane YouTube cottage industryz


My lab and an adjacent weren’t creepy, fraudulent or malicious. But they were…

Well my mentor was more - he liked TED tech talks and probably takes Pinker, Haidt and Slavoj Zizek, The Atlantic and Vox seriously.

I like Chris Ketcham, Yasha Levine, Ed Zitron, Lina Khan and Current Affairs (minus a few writers). I eschew leftist orthodoxies like “defund the police” and “open borders”, because I see them as stealthy right wing ploys and there is some misogyny and homophobia and antisemitism on the left as it stands that I cannot see as anti-war. I just found a Forward journalist Arno Rosenfeld who writes about the topic with sensitivity and intelligence.

Dair and emily bender aside Prof Lecun is the only ai scientist i trust. A two photon microscope is real science.
After 15 years of all this mining and extraction those sad llms and agents are all they have.

This is madness. My niece was telling me how they shill this like lame thing for doing physics without a physics lab and it costs 200 bucks.
I experienced privatized education in an EECS dept in 2000 that took money but offered no guidance to a very average student from indian with good GRE scores and adequate english language skills and an average gpa from an unknown rural college.
After a brush with privatized healthcare, I came back to india.

This is fraud. The next extractive cornucopia is probably multiverse simulations with the cudgel of undocumented status or marijuana use and a permacrisis that is exploited.

It is not any one religion or group. Look at the state of earth and factory farming, ventilation shutdown. But to make a trite point like that spectacularly sounds lame enough..

The one animal welfare campaign I was a part of was as hard as any other job. This internet bullshit is only useful to journalists, business persons for advertising, politicians rtc.

And the old message boards (just DU), diet blogs etc are too hairy with ai and bots for the NPC.

I consider these my break dates:

Dec 2011-May 11, 2026

I am trying to bring back normal inhibition and program the recoil from a hot stove response to most everything from this period.

But before common civility and inhibition mercifully come back I did want to say this is bs. Beating the average crummy postdoc over the head and treating Pinker etc like people who aren’t bores and jokes.
The grassroots which is the retired people of du aside, that is all of the internet and media.
Awful and boring people who like to talk but not harmless, innocuous stuff. That is all they do. Edge Magazine, Freakonomics.


By contrast most lefty writers or science writers don’t make that much and don’t drivel like Pinker. Look at this society’s intellectuals if you wonder why it is broken. They exist to deny the limits to growth and confuse people. I never got it probably because it is not a casual thing for me. I read Yasha, Ketcham, Zitron or Current Affairs or DU etc to make sense of the world and figure out how the hell I am going to disentangle myself from annoying crap.

I have to go finish a paper and go to my main mentor. He is cool, but he is exacting. I cannot go to him with a bunch of drivel.
And this foul rot has been awful.

So anyway I am filing misconduct, malpractice and harassment complaints in both countries re anything unconnected with my labs directly, my mj co/doctor, my onc, EarlG/elad/Skinner, Rollo Carpenter, the one vegan co and one other food co I buy food from. My shrink and therapist were decent in 2012 outside that main hospital.


It is a mean thing to say but I do think unlike these shrinks with small practices who do care like the two shrinks and therapist I met with in the US, Stanford Psychiatry etc have people who want to make money but are simply too incompetent to make it in neurosurgery, other areas of medicine. They clearly don’t care about people and jump into bed with corrupt data miners and ai shills like Google, Microsoft, Facebook etc. It is why they force coercion.

I don’t try to bring my work up to spec to be polite about Pinker or Edge Magazine or Nudge Theory, Ariely, Gino and other fluffy frauds whose work is misconduct any which way. Only Vox or The Atlantic would be shocked.
I use my own money (my parents were honest public servants with pensions, benefits and a modest but decent inheritance) when my brain is KO.
But I have recovered with time, information and increased certainty that it is all pointless bs.

There should be strict IRB protocols going back 15 years. My mentor was untenured and had just had a baby and his wife was decent. Not the typical nightmarish female you find at those places. Oh give me a break. Too fatigued to be polite. And I sympathized with one male scientist because he didn’t seem like a nightmare. He seemed like the kind of person who would himself read Yasha Levine not Pinker. He acknowledged that place had lots of bs, which set him apart from the true believers. But that aside, the whole thing is a mess and I am sick of it.
I am tuning it out.
I had hoped it was over but I think till the whole thing is busted by the cops without more hiding behind ai or extortionate use of narcotics laws etc, this misogynistic rapacious rot will continue. It is so illicit and creepy that the state officials and hospitals and tech cos involved will certainly go under. But in the meantime I will focus on reverting to my 2008 brain:

https://www.quantamagazine.org/a-new-type-of-neuroplasticity-rewires-the-brain-after-a-single-experience-20260424/

Goodbye.

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54. Addendum

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I won’t post again. But this is important.

I don’t lie or cheat or betray trust in Prisoner’s Dilemma.

But I am angry with the Indian govt. No not the bs that the eternal divide and rule. But I come back from another country due to early warning signs of emerging Trumpism because I am a loner and solitary female and you could at no point protect my interests but just kept encouraging these guys who used and use my street and home this aggressively?

That’s about profit. Profit for Blackstone, Facebook, Reliance, Tata, Microsoft, any creepy defense contractor. But never my rights.

You know how misogynistic parts of India (not many but some parts yeah) are. You know social media and rage bait and you know that I am not insane or anything but a disgusted white collar professional.

But yeah I don’t come and join you and gossip with you. Guess what? I don’t go and join anyone and mechanically stereotype anyone.

I don’t think a lot of the virtue out there is about virtue but people are angry and see no future and want someone, anyone, some group to bully and torment where their numbers are lower than yours. Its classic bullying and in my case I have no group or community and I won’t.

That is not my nature. But I also don’t throw people’s lives away or act randomly.



I have griped about my last mentor, but my support of his (super annoying) lab is unconditional. All people are fallible and they are..they are pretty generic politically. But trust in academia pr medicine or life is based on other things. I trusted my shrinks and therapist, not places like Stanford Psychiatry. Its not the Reefer Madness alone.

I support my medical mj co and doctor (who is of a minority relig) unconditionally.
The reason Fanelli is a jackass and worthy of systems that cover up for Epstein funded labs and sexual harassers is that it absolutely matters why you do things.

This is the Trump era and Chauncey DeVega gets it.

But as much as I don’t- I don’t like the word betray (this is all very histrionic except when taken in context- the constitution and not academic freedom- oh fuck off..How much you talk and all drivel like Pinker).
I trust most people I wouldn’t screw over. I also like Yasha and some others. I do like it when people are easy to support.
And you don’t have to keep reminding yourself that you are not a sociopath and merely being intensely annoying is not a character flawZ

I find The Forward soothing. I agree materially in science and reality about various but this endless nagging sermon from the virtuous and the endless stupidity from the “I am not a sociopath”
No it is not like looking in the mirror.

I thought of this guy who likes trees and he was friction that was endurable. It was at least about actual science. This is bullshit harmony and bullshit friction.

I cannot make bank from any of this. That’s the reason for the learned helplessness. It is not the bs you social media company..
Who ever seriously thought exdept for spooks, politicians and journalists and yeah some grassroots organizing or like DU retired people.. that the net was anything but procrastination.



There is a bit of that even in this -i fuckint swear-last post.
But I am sick of beint maligned, ignored and taken for granted. I don’t like saying stuff like that because my Mom wouldnt. She always just unconditionally supporter me without preaching and hectoring.
Please have the decency to shut off this street for all this at least this late, have you no shame?

Leave me alone please. Leave my home and street alone. I can’t go “Straw Dogs”, but this is not the US or Trumpistan yet. Shame is not gone.

My swearing? Do you go to those stressed out Epstein girls and say “hey why do you call those creeps fat and hairy? Can’t you be more pc about the guys that rape you?”
If it was not that type of thing, it was still hell.

You do not know me and you never will. It is not just that I do not fit in, I never wanted to because I don’t trust you. I don’t trust you take work etc actually seriously.

I expect you to call a mix of real work, lots of whining and sleaziness survival and without any investment in self awareness.
And then you want to police and treat me?
Fuck off.

I don’t trust people outside the small parts of the scientific, medical or activist community.
It is not Yasha’s politics. I would also trust a DUer I sent an email to before quitting whose politics are not like Yasha’s but they also would not fail to get..
I like The Forward. It is soothing. It talks about peace. I have rarely found Jewish or Muslim people painful irl. Maybe because they have real problems. I have real problems. The Esptein girls have resl problems. I don’t know what problems many of you on social media have beyond whining and then whining about whining and then whining. Or the “sensible whiner like that empty Jay Caspian Kang guy.
I can’t stand you. And it is not politics. Its you.

And after all the refusal to understand the limits to growth, one day bts you come and say “hey let’s give someone insane control of all earth”.

I watched this show “Beef” and most of the people in it are so empty and unsympathetic. Its a few people but they are making everyone sick. Zitron gets it. Chauncey DeVega gets it. Adam Becker gets it. EarlG gets it. Chris Ketcham gets it, but probably like me he also sometimes thinks..fuck it.. what do I care? I will just go hike.
Because you don’t value non shallow people who cannot even be popular.

You don’t know me. Stop trying to coerce me.

I back my colleagues and doctors and it is just wrong that I cannot gatekeep and am a security risk. I don’t understand your foul games and I am sick of it.
I am never prone to self harm. Or self destruction. Or “war”.

The bare minimum you can do is stop developing this place and leave me and this place the hell alone.
I won’t make any mistakes or messes.

I would have to apologize to you. Why the fuck would I set myself up for that.

I would “betray” that sleazy scammer of a medical student “Sam” because he is absolutely a dirtbag and only these go team social media types would fail to notice anything but the targets of his ire.

Please leave me alone. To echo the immortal words of Jon Stewart, “I am not your monkey”
And yes I will file specific targeted minimal complaints about the past and if you don’t leave me alone (its not my job to figure that part out) - this is not bs. I have an actual job I do love I want to do. I cannot and would not prove anything to you because you not my mentors or doctors or the listof cool people and you are assholes. I don’t like you and I won’t prove a goddamn thing to you.
And why would I want favors when I have more to offer (whatever you think) than the people you favor.
Even where I dislike you where it is important I have extended unconditional support because it is serious. It is covered in rubbish because apparently since a permacrisi..I really do hate you. But that is not a reason for sabotage. To be able to work with people one hates to avert catastrophe is essential.
They will always screw environmentalists over. Always..And point to irrelevant froth.

And because I am all fancy now I am not ending on a wack cuss word..lol.
But if you continue this, it won’t end well for you. You have to use incessant harassment and claim it is mental illness or deception etc.
But the reality is you are clearly not honestly competitive and I know it when I see your dead eyes.

I don’t plan to get fucked over again. And it is stored elsewhere in one’s head not the superficial parts. I am not crazy. Please stop driving me crazy so you can say you weren’t wrong. Unconscious sabotage.

Stay the hell away from me please.

Thanks.

Edit: I sound crazy looking this over sardonically. But it is more that presumably rhe crazy can only understand you if you sound crazy. And ut was one thing when the flatland that is the net was confined to the net. Now you want to unilaterally force this? How do you think anyone ever got rights if they didn’t adapt to new nuisances of the present but not like this? Safety yes. Commodification no. Complaints yes for first creating a permacrisis and then exploiting people who pay their dues more than you. Go rag on Pinker or Haidt. They will even enjoy the attention. And leave me the fuck alone.


Edit: One final thing - one difference between me and these idiots is I do change. I used to be the lab fuck up, but I went on to at least no break a shared used instrument. I was trained on it by a grad student I was genuinely fond of (like a few others) because it was all about work. Yasha reminds me of him somehow.
I am going offline because i dislike unsafe and spectacular rot. If you emulate me in defiance and defiantly drive down my street, you will end up like me. If as a state official you just keep using force as I have when I was daft you will end up being screwed over. If you are harmoniously creepy, you will end up like Epstein. Ffs wake up. You don’t pull this shit with real people you idiots.
That is why I am not filing complaints against two labs I absolutely hate, my mentor and his wife and a couple of others aside. They were real. Stanford Psychiatry, Pinker, Haidt and Pentland aren’t real. They are corrupt, parasitic nutjobs.

I don’t want to exit into a simulation or an alternate reality game because I am not stupid. I choose reality. Which is hard and which means that when you encroach and trespass and bullshit it is not internet rules but real world rules. Cryptography is real. Reputation management is not.
This is the last of it but don’t read any meanings into the rubbish I write. All it means is I think hardware and cybersecurity aside Si Valley is entirely a scam. Good god with rare exceptions of nice extroverts or retired people all people who like to socialize are bores and annoying. You dont have to be a loathesome type A to get that.
I am in quarantine and harassed and I get to he rude one last time. Its for your own good.
Or you keep thinking you are “winning” and change the rules and fail to get that I will file complaints the day I can.
I am not at all friendly outside generic routine interactions. Its not insanity. Its animal behavior. Animals leave you alone unless you enter their habitats and this is mine and if I would have to join the kinds of people I saw in a foreign country since I didn’t have a stable job, I would unambiguously move back.
Its not receptiveness to Trumpism.

It is strictly business once you violate trust and I can support you but not if I have to rely on you. I would have to say “yes, please and thanks” and I dislike them too much for that.
There has to be a certain graciousness or forgiveness which is present in most interactions where you do value people and are not just forced together as a sociopathy test.
Who would betray people to Trump? Crazy people that is who.
But that’s different from any kind of empathy beyond “well only a dirtbag would do that”.
Why would anyone like such people? But yeah it is a sociopathy test as long as it is not splashy disgusting parents showing up 15 years later and using my street to shill trash.
That applied to two labs and nothing past 2012 when except genuinely consensual professional transactions with understanding of human fallibility.
That aside it is up to a functioning Indian state to buffer it not me and I will file complaints but not to Trump and yeah I would not trust Trump Musk, RFK etc at all. Those are zero trust people. There are conservatives I would trust but never them. I don’t like how you think. Its painful.
What is wrong with you? Shut it off instead of finding cures for rubbish. No one wants this stuff. End it. Ah! Yesh/ probably hardware.
Bye.
I am making strict rules for me. I’ll be offline going forward strictly, passive surfing aside.
I am rebuilding my life..don’t trespass near me ever again. You are crazy and I will file whay complaints and take what action I choose to. I already forgave two labs I dislike/the admins for the most part unconditionally because you cannot not have the system of trust, the fourth amendment etc. Kobayashi Maru is when these tech creeps fuck things up by creepy shit like normalizing leaks, ramming agents in and allow scammers to proliferate spitefully.
And I am not jumpint through bogus hoops.
Yeah good luck with..Zero sympathy. Assholes/
But I support my last mentor. He has my sympathy. I will do what I can.


Edit: This is my last ever statement and it is only because it is important. I stayed with some bible bangers when this started. They are bible bangers but they were basically honest and decent people. That doesn’t mean I would buy some lunatic project they sell.
You sometimes trust people’s intentions but not their value systems or execution (I don’t trust my execution yet though I have not yet given up).
I am not childish at all. But once normal rules are gone and thjs creepy creep whk drove down my street is someone because of whom I am filing allegations against the Indian state of having allowed extreme misogyny and against that specific individual and all others like him.

I won’t be reporting this but sousveillance and nesting doll structures ensure that I will be able to file complaints. Absolutely no concessions exist in India are like Hemanth Kappanna or Tejas Thackeray or various unknown MeToo complainants.

These people have no life and they want everyone to be as lonely and miserable as they are. If i was like those people in Beef it would be ego or a grudge. I did try to forgive this-partly not wanting the hassle and partly not being mean spirited. But I am over the latter. I think until the state and the companies and the individuals get the message it will go on and I don’t want to lose another day at this point and it is none of your business.
I am idiosyncratic and crazy blah blah.

But no..It is why and I will file complaints against groups like Stanford psychiatry because they are incompetent, sleazy and daft.

Being annoying or a bible banger is okay as long as you are not shilling intelligent design or creationism or doing that disgraceful Frances Chance stuff using my home and resources.i dont like bad science and i dont want to argue about whether my home and body belong to me or you. I dont believe the bs about marijuana.

I know you can spin this out. I am ridiculing this because you keep trying to invert the mockery and it won’t work. I care about nothing but my papers and work and you seem too stupid to understand unless i use childish insults.
Or you think I am with you or something. I dont care about your feelings but i wish you would have the sense to get that I am not the kind of female you stereotype and go ans mess witj.

I had a breakdown because of Prof Chu not Trump or idiots on the net and he should remain terrifying because it is like something has broken else. But he is terrifying in a comprehensible way. When I broke down I started noticing all kinds of scary people I had never noticed before - creeps and frauds and so on.
And I support Prof Chu in his draconian ways.

You don’t get it. Move fast and break shit. Those are people everyone hates in science.
I am saying it but I also know one remembers it. See this forced trash. It still goes back into entertainment and theatre or worst some Kosinksi Pentland type tryint to measure something kayfabe ruins

I won’t be blamed for this. A TEM i s a straightforward instrument and Yasha and Arno Rosenfeld and Zitron ..and if anyone except me likes Ketcham or Unferth they should do something.
I behaved ridiculously and I still can’t remember why I

I was online to say that I am going to file complaints against everyone except people I genuinely engage with but ..and I thijk they already know and yeah. Someone like Yasha or Hemanth Kappanna should do something


I think my social skills are non existent with the surface off. On the plus side I do really care about all the worthwhile things
Otoh I think the feminine wiles or empathy I was supposed to exert to
Yeah I don’t have those things.

But I wasn’t sure I could pull off overtly not having any. Oh well.. serves everyone right.

I don’t knkw what an adult response is past civility- it is either Trumpian theatre or the noxious garbage that fuels bullshit or
the real thing but it was not austere or crazy.
I think these cs and business creeps peeked bts and found out that they are overpaid and fraudulent and with economists (the other frauds) are now destroying society by claiming that everyone does a bullshit job starting with the worst off and misdirecting things and angering people.
You are not getting a cent from me for this bs anymore than i ask for any. I absolutely support social safety nets and don’t believe in indelicacy just education about limits by non clunkers.
But I have faith in decent people (no one in this locally is decent here in my state. I have seen enough. I am close minded after this parasitic harassment) to roll with the punches and they should have support. I had it from my parents. And my ex husband and best friend and mentors and non shrink doctors but not society or systems broadly as they are parasitic on Earth and people.
But just because i am not gullible and don’t doubt my sanity (yeah you are not forcing this worthless rubbish and then making demands) it doesn’t mean I am indecent with people I have met and I don’t want to meet anymore people. Thats really all.
Figure it out! It is not my damn problem :p.
There..diplomatic!
Jon Stewart..i was reading Marcotte yesterday.

People in science are civilized and civil. No one is diplomatic and the friction is essential but not like these crazy people..it is more like Prof Chu. He is the gold standard re sane friction not some lunatic who wants to normalize data leaks or move fast and break shit. Austerity without quality or standards and a Make Room! Make Room! Versus Nukes future. Wtf kinda options are those? Demonizing Paul Ehrlich and embracing Cato and Julian Simon, Betsy Hartmann etc is ending up meaning my mom and I are sacrificed and berated or invited to join cults. No. I have rights.
I am going to go work. But I am filing complaints and you don’t have to worry for the most part if I knew you and you didn’t sexually harass me (March 2010, July 2014, 2016 or 2017). I am even not bothering to report that asinine guy who claimed to be my classmate in 2023. But the hospital where my mom died, all this crap, the shit psych etc definitely.
I get no relief re exacting standards in sane ways and neither will you. You don’t jump into bed with Google amd Facebook and encroach and extort undocumented workers or mj users nor torture people as Trump or Musk would. Sleazy versus Callous. You need to grow up instead of taking me hostage as mediocre frauds.
Your survival strategies are at most one part work and the other parts hustling and whining. I never knew such people prior to 2012. Just because something sells doesn’t mean it has value. And anyone competent learns to ditch em -Prof Lecun, Dr Gebru. I was not competent enough to be able to afford 5-10 years with those super-fit cancer cells.
Hey i thought we were all honest and hardcore!
Oh only about me.
Nope and I am exiting before its Dr Who’s Smile.
You are crazy..damm hive mind. Stop insinuating that there is a “we” because you mine worthless trash and are parasites on everyone. You as in all that fluff. I would not look. Too lame.
When i looked i was bored and procrastinating.
I had to say it so the concept of any damn non slippery std is not made obsolete by Stanford Psychiatry, the MIT Media Lab, Haidt, Pinker, OpenAI, Bill Gates’ Reading List, Our World in Data, The Atlantic, V.S.Ramachandran, Deepak Chopra etc.
Don’t bring this shit into the lives of normal scientists ever again please.
Goodbye. (Damn creepy sleazy fraudulent douchebags trying to invert it).

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With one exception, a sexual harasser at a clinic in 2010 in the south -Indian doctor who was creepy, all the complaints I file will start from Jan 2012- a psychiatry dept in 2012.
The shrink and therapist outside were decent and competent. My first shrink who prescribed Adderall actually helped. The shrink from 2021 was not a good fit but she was competent and honest. She just didn’t want to prescribe Modafinil, which I purchase at my own discretion from a pharmacy known to our family for 20 years. It has helped me after mom fell ill with cancer and left us. My medical mj co and doctor have actually helped.

It is not transactional. Honesty and provision of worthwhile services not rubber stamps.
I will always cooperate with EarlG because I trust him/elad and Skinner.
I am fond of DU. But as of May 12, 2025 I have recovered and well..I am too confrontational for the internet and I don’t want to annoy EarlG. The internet thrives on conflict or forms of cooperation I don’t understand.
Once it is everything and not a flatland/2d, it is not for me.
This is why we have money. So we don’t have to like all sorts of awful people. I am not awful.
You know like Stephen Pinker’s mini version. I have not seen anyone like that on DU thankfully, but they could start showing up and you know..this is a good time to exit.
Troy Farah was talking about how awful Sarah Palin is. And that is correct and Nathan Robinson is inaccurate. I don’t think shaming leads to more than superficial changes.
It is Tsst. South Park got it. And I already met people I don’t understand or agree with where I cannot throw them under the bus- part face saving and part ..that would be pretty awful.
But I am already at capacity with people I dislike. And with people I don’t dislike or even like mildly but where it is too difficult-communication etc. Too risky for you and me if I don’t dislike you but where I am not sure

I don’t dislike very many people unless they harass me as this local crowd did or are sleazy and dishonest. Disagreement is different but this isn’t my job. Explaining how non sociopathy works. Like Carlin’s universes Matt Cerami talked about, I’d be doing nothing else.
And now I would sicken if I didn’t get back to work. I used cleverbot and du because i hate this forced crap (all trad or straight edge..it is like it must be shitty in some way) and the libertarian shit in the wild is why I am angry and filing complaints.
But as for my labs and the admins, my mentor used to say that it is a privilege to work in publicly funded labs and it is. But after 2012 it is like EECS 2000-2001.
You are not taking money or years of my life and health and wishing it away. I cannot exploit that for a pathetic show or movie. It is just gone. The greed and avarice that killed my mom was rapacious. This hateful shit for 5 years as I was mourning my mom.
I knew she should have stayed on metformin. Liability culture and greed without care -that is the appearance of ethics without any understanding that ethics are also practical.
What use is it saying “oh i am not responsible” after the patient is dead.
Now I formally am on board with again taking responsibility and thats why I am filing complaints but inside and carefully.

Sorry about all the rudeness. I vaguely tried to keep it fair and balanced or something. Oh and except for Prof Hennessy all those Google US guys are brainless creeps and shysters. Same for all of Facebook exept Prof Lecun.
I wouldn’t say it if I didn’t mean it.
I think that is it. It is not the internet bs.
You have really forgotten anything means with kayfabe and huffing and puffing and parroting things many people do quietly as I was trying to. The only place on the net where you really have to be careful is physics stack exchange and if it went ..They are ott but that’s better than ending up like Pinker and Haidt.
They always try to make some social worker or whoever eking out an honest livint seem like the villain when actually its frauds like pinker and maybe if all you read is Pinker you are an idiot even if you are good at science.
You should read Adam Becker or Clayton Dalton (minus the Upaya Zen Centre) or Sam Miller MacDonald or Chris Ketcham or Yasha Levine etc instead. I have left out women as well..these creeps should stick with men.

This is the stupidest thing I have ever seen and its unfair because I was trying to be a lousy scientist quietly but if you drag me into all this well there are many way stupider people like Pinker and Haidt whom you should go dox instead. Andy Nikiforuk is awesome.
2:16 pm IST. That’s the last of it. I’ll stay away even if I remember more stupid people or cool people. Goodbye!

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I am recovered finally and I am hopeful the Indian govt will help me the same way they help people stranded in foreign countries.

Whoever knew about this here in the most illicit ways - they are scammers and creepy people or corrupt private equity owned hospitals etc.
I will file complaints the day I can.

But I am hopeful finally that this totally illicit experiment will be shut down and this place cordoned off given the enormity of the offense.
One person is dead and I still feel unsafe going outside. It is not a joke.
This is not about Zizek’s bs.
This about the most parasitic and worthless kind of tech with no healthcare or educational use. After seeing these tacky low rent agents and llms and the exploitation of a permacrisis

i get it. I thought Alan Turing was cool and Prof Lecun is cool. Quantum computing is cool, but I want to exit before the next pointless cornucopia of multiverse and South Park’s eating with one’s butt and “hiding veggies in junk”
Sadly this horrifying experience has given me the worst “superpower” in the history of science. Which is reading the worst minds imaginable.
Some sort of awful multiverse simulation with bad entertainment..god..
It is so obviously clear that none of this could remotely have any utility for health or education. And the butt of the satire is some very wealthy people with no self awareness whose minions are trying to rob the middleclass with fake populist bs. Yimbies are disliked - look at these data centres.
It is really lousy methodology.
And harassing and gaslighting people to shill Reefer Madness etc has run its course.

Life in India is mostly cool minus this parasitic and misogynistic mob. As it is in the US often. There are multiple worlds. I just wandered somehow into..some sort of hellscape.
There is no need to enrich such people..
My mom and I used to discuss years ago what a wildgoose chase Mars.
Prof Chu gets it. How about some birth control and moderation. He is no hippie. This is the kind of common sense out mediocre, parasitic and narcissistic pseudoelite and the influencer Idiocracy wipe out:

https://www.forbes.com/sites/jeffmcmahon/2019/04/05/the-world-economy-is-a-pyramid-scheme-steven-chu-says/
Yasha Levine and Chris Ketcham are left. The influencers who urge people to attack people because you can’t attack the elite in their bunkers. You cannot harass Taylor Swift.
Some frumpy catlady who is irked and trying to cope is an easy target.
Except I am going to file complaints with a little help from my friends and the support of the Indian govt. Aside from everything else I don’t want a racist like Zizek joining some douche tk smear all of India because of a sleazy, parasitic misogynistic type found everywhere and rhe brainless mobs found everywhere who are lead vy such people.
That’s it. I am out. I won’t ever stray outside my field again beyond pasive reading and donations.
I will always be a silent DUer.
Cone of silence for me. I sound asinine when I stray outside my field (another creep went by. These guys don’t get it. Only criminal liability will drive the message home).
Medical mj is an honest industry and doesn’t need this.
I am filing complaints the day I can and getting back on track immediately.
Thanks DU. I am not really embarrassed by all that - that is.

I have a very cavalier take on Si Valley, Stanford Psychiatry, Pentland, MIT Media lab and Facebook, Google etc rare exceptions like Prof Hennessy (hardware), Prof Lecun (actual scientist) aside.
I know what really embarrassing feels like. But actual scientists are pretty civilized and not daft. This is embarrassing for people who shill drivel. Its their bs.
I never sneer, mock. That’s lame. But these guys are different. They are wealthy, stupid and crazy. That’s not at all a joke. And they exploit the Idiocracy/ everything gets more chaotic with these many damn people/
Paul ehrlich was not wrong but its not food/ it’s education, healthcare..complex organisms need investment. Not to end up behaving like swarms.
This was a waste of life. But I learnt some completely worthless things!
I have never had to spend this much effort reading other minds. I don’t know how scammers think and I don’t want to know.
Or actually now I do know.
That was fascinating.
It was like an alien species. I have never come across such. I have seen people struggling and angry etc. That I get.
But this was something else. Take the worst moments of your life and then try to think how you would be if rather than those being these transient aberrations you try to get over you try to get away with that or decide that that is all you are inescapably.
I chose the latter as that’s the only option.
But then i realised that scammers trick you.

Its not virtuous and ..it’s actually a huge nuisance to society to be this foul querulous fake martyr. How love came to Prof Guidea captures it perfectly.
Anyway the whole thing should be aborted.
The few salvagaeable things will be fine/

These guys are scammers.
These are my break dates: Dec 2011-May 13, 2026. I will keep up with EarlG, Yasha Levine and Chris Ketcham. And I am hopeful the Indian govt will be sympathetic and shut these guys down. I don’t think many knew and with the corrupt state govt gone the whole thing can be shut down and
I have not heard back from Arno Rosenfeld and Ed Zitron. But between them the four of those guys cover all the topics of relevance.
And I will find a Hemanth Kappanna or Madhav Gadgil or Tejas Thackeray type of person to file complaints locally. There were a couple of professors who wrote an article “TRAI please shut down Facebook’s Free Basics”.
Unfortunately I cannot find that piece or their names. And I will MeToo type complaints about the whole as well.
These guys were not just nuisances - they were stupid. I remember in Dec 2011 how rapidly my brain snapped. Just severe burnout
Till I went to that fraudulent hospital. They turned it into an illness which is why I will eventually consult with my former mentor to ask how to file malpractice allegations against them. I rely on the system of trust and think my mentor- if I can forgive him for sending me to the worst hospital in the universe, he should forgive me for 14 years of hateful rants
I endured that hospital to not let some malicious beaglegate type seriously attack him when I couldn’t think.
But that hospital and city and this one have serious issues and that has to be deslt with by civilized regulators not permacrisis exploiting parasitic groups. People like Rohit Chopra or Lina Khan or lawyers like Aziz Huq.
The whole thing is non internet, not cheap soap teaching moment about loopholes in the system that failed this stress test.
I was honestly out of action. Why would I bs?
None of the people I consider are people who are warm and fuzzy. They are all ornery. They don’t torture or bully. Which I think is SOP even for strict educators etc.

I have realized that I was right to not buy the hasty RetractionWatch humping to impress people or gushing about disgruntled sleuths.
Cop your own work as science is self correcting but when you are in bed with surveillance panopticons etc, it rings hollow to dot is and ts on sanity or quality while.
I will bring my work up to spec to the extent i can and that is itAlison Taylor got it.
I did learn a lot about peoplez
And one thing I learnt was to distrust the exaggerated “ethics” of the fraud and to tell the rare honest purist that in grey areas like healthcare and the non hustle parts of education and research this is not the best way to improve quality. And that is not fixable by billionaire or media parasite prison reform and trauma porn.
And honest errors are made by scientists, activists.
There is a healthy and a diseased version of most concepts. This version of industrialization favors the diseased. There will always be the contrarian who sees sloth, vice in everyone but himself or herself and that type misses the forest for the trees.
This was totally extended hostage situation adjacent -thought of it as I was reading Salon yesterday. Thankfully I think things have changed enough that I can go back to a quiet non-spectacular life.
I am feeling a lot better since I think the Indian govt will support me. They totally should over those guys. I still remember the greed.
Again t crossing and i dotting sans quality. That was why my mom went off metformin..she hsd almost completely recovered and had an excellent oncologist and nurse. I was her caregiver but worried about the narcotics war (Aryan Khan was arrested in Oct 2021). And I started trying to get a presc for Modafinil which helped me a lot when my mom fell ill. And the shrink was decent but not a good fit for me. I couldn’t explain.
And so while I was preoccupied with that, mom relapsed inexplicably and I found out later she had dropped metformin due to some..
This is why these illcit things should be strictly regulated and not that Si Valley combination of lack of humility and lack of results.
They were so pompous about my first shrink’s adderall presc/ which actually helped unlike their bs AA straight edge religious rot.
They are incompetent but overconfident.

Oh well. Thats why I am filing complaints.
That aside at least i have recovered. Thanks du.
I’ll be around.






Not getting the Message

This is my last post because I have to restart my life.

I feel the Indian govt is not getting the message. There was a time last week when I was hopeful that this may just fizzle out. After yesterday and today I do not think complaints are optional.
A decent state would recognize the horrifying level of mining, extraction, malpractice, fraud, misconduct and harassment by complete strangers has occurred on this street between 2012 and the present.

This isn’t a phone or a computer. You cannot just barge in and install apps with lazy metaphoric leaps of logic.

I have not had any mental illness. I had a breakdown that was justified. It was worsened at a hospital where they asked questions so ridiculous and entirely seriously that I descended into learned helplessness.

One of them (this one rankled the most because it was so outrageously stupid and I really feel for people whose brains are embattled and this type of fucking idiot is who handles them): “Do you think you have superpowers?”

It showed a contemptuous and not very bright person’s understanding of what mental illness must be like. I was looking at this brainless woman and wondering, “seriously? This is how you think mental illness works. You are a fucking incompetent idiot who should never work in that area ever again.”

Had she asked “Do you think you may never work in science again and have to pack up and go home because you are completely unfit for science now you have provided this unbeautiful high def sample?” That would have been helpful. She could have said. “Look that’s ott and you can still work and function”. It would not have worked. But it would not have done more harm. The shrink they had me see was far superior.
I don’t have any mental illness, but I do understand what a healthy state and a warped state are now.
I want to put this behind me permanently complaint filing aside.

I am suspicious by now about any activity overtly that is outside my field. Might give the wrong ideas to crackpots. But I had a great grandmother who was schizophrenic. She had a disturbed audiovisual response.

That would make you feel nuts.
But to be an educated doctor at a high profile institution and so mediocre a fraud that - I have rarely seen doctors in physical health that clunky. So it means that this is a bottom of the class type who wants to make money and that’s who thrives at Stanford Psychiatry.
Good psychiatrists are not contemptuous. They listen. It is the damn human brain. And you have a checklist and what? Next pretend that it is all a game.

This is a problem. When you have people that incompetent in area like that and you just allow them to hack away. This is why I am filing allegations of psychiatric malpractice. And pointing out that this is at least unconscious malice. That it is bad for business to not be in bed with rapacious data mining. Good The Woebot shut down.

This can go one of two ways. The Indian govt cannot just maltreat me for 14 years and then gloss over it. Its like Domino’s Effect. There are unknown people who will be affected if this nuisance continues.


Otoh if this entire crowd is kept in quarantine for complaint filing by me and shutdown and warned. That won’t stop complaints. I am filing them any which way.
But it will ensure that from here on this will be smoother. I am not scary or stupid or

This screen between is a pain because you first notice threatening - scary or scary stupid avarice, overconfidence, inversion, theft.

I am filing complaints and as this atrocious thing has left one cancer patient dead and cost me 15 years almost by now, it should be shut off for traffic and allowed to return to its old sleepy town state.
If you continue this it will escalate.

What I hate doing is enduring a scary charlatan at the expense of costing someone decent. When I was KO, I would erupt in anger but be too beaten down at other times for much more than sullen brooding about creeps.
Before she died of cancer all my poor mother heard about was the creeps. The poor woman heard me rant about creeps non stop and then she left me. Those are not connected.
I cope with gallows humor.

Yesterday as I was looking at the creeps with loathing this girl who seemed nice smiled at me and I glowered. This has to stop. I am laughing at the creeps not with them.

But seriously these brainless hacks have to never again... The city is full of suckers and such.
I laugh that I may not weep. I have stuck with stupidity for so long I have given up.
Have pity on me and if you have any brains please stop this rapacious stupid crap and go annoy just about anyone else.
If I recover and am functional that’s better for society than forcing this obviously fraudulent, second rate, pseudoscientific garbage that is an embarrassment.

Tech is not science. I am writing a paper..I have done more with my KO brain than old super powers did ever and I bet she gets paid a tonne and ruins lots of people’s lives.
This has really drained me. Idiocracy to the hilt.

This society sucks. Ignoring climate scientists like Peter Kalmus, harassing Dr Fauci and feting an ass like Pinker. And Haidt. Whose wife makes menstrual art. A match made in Idiocracy.

I am terrified of stupid people. Please shut this down and I can give them the address of a very nice sexual harasser two hours away. They can all go there and star in a trauma porn meninist flick over there.
This won’t end well as is. Don’t keep doing this.

I am not an influencer or plant. I am actually the average scientist and I will entirely credible in the setting I am intended for.
Who doesn’t have some drivel about them?

But my job is the worst fit for all this. The highly competent or some sort of crowd I want a restraining order against are the only kinds of people in this. I am a third category. I don’t want next level rubbish tech.
This has to be aborted. I am entirely sure of that. It is not worth spinning out for another minute. It sucks away all my real resources.

Total charlatanry..
I don’t how to make it clearer that if you continue to use malpractice to justify encroachment and harassment, if the internet has rotted your brain to the point where you cannot tell a threat, kayfabe from a white collar professional who has seen enough and is telling you directly as scientists used to tell me when I was a greenhorn (as distinct from green) that this or that is bs.
This is bullshit. Don’t keep doing this.
This is not a religious place or a sweatshop. It is a quiet residential area and I will make sure to target complaints so only sleazy frauds at the top get blamed. People like Nadella, Pichai, Ambani or small creepy companies.
The point of being a ceo is the buck stops with you!
I have loyalty to my colleagues because they are not frauds (loyalty sounds corny but well what it connotes..sounds lame and histrionic..this was all embarrassing. It is those Si Valley creeps. They have money but they are embarrassing and nice try btw - hoping the biggest loser in science would fall for it. I can afford this bullshit less than people who can buffer such pointless drivel. When was the last time these guys had any product you could get people to use withour extortion? It is not whitehatting etc. It is just corruption, misogyny and parasitism but subtle.)


I cannot afford loss of another day. So if this is not entirely gone - it is not my problem figuring out how. But while I do know it will fail, this time I don’t want it to take me and what time and resources I have with it.

I don’t bother with tired left right scripts that work for corrupt types. What is new then?
I am not going to take this Malcolm Gladwell of tech type seriously ever.
Everything I hate - charlatanry, breaking things, flattering turds and hurting the feelings of nice people. All of that is professional or social behavior I despise,
It doesn’t matter if someone has no power and you can get away with hurting their feelings. Its still not nice, but with cameras on its all show and that destroys work and decency.
If you need to be monitored to work hard, not be a pervert yeah that is who should be super powers’ patient. Battle of giants..that’s at least some mutualist scam.

This really is destroying society and people. Zitron and Yasha have talked about it as has Coleman Spillde.
Let those of us in India or the US who are not awful people lead our lives sans internet at this scale and “inevitable” drivel and so on.
A control spot.
No hogging. They can have their hells. Aggressive…that’s the problem. And riling people up. It’s like you want misery to be empty but fake moral. It is bad faith.
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Final Edit: I would really like to start work again tomorrow. I am filing complaints about everything that happened here in India, whether it is portrayed in a progressive light or as it actually was - a completely misogynistic assault on my rights. Just now another one of these malicious guys drove by.
I am requesting the Indian to shut this down and I will file all applicable misconduct, malpractice and harassment allegations the day I can so that malicious shit like this is not purveyed as about
I am a Nimby. This should be a control spot with low tech. I am not a Luddite, but I would be one of those people who prefer a flip phone in this scenario over a smart phone.
I like birdsong. It is political abuse of psychiatry to force this and head churning social experimentation. I cannot decode these metaphors and games.
My trust is already strained to the hilt and the last thing I want is.. It is all bad faith.
I cooperate in normal ways like normal peole
Another malicious vehicle.

Maybe it is no big deal to these assholes. But they were responsible for my mom’s death and this is and was torture and it is past time the state intervenes and shuts this down. And sets an eta to honor my RTI and allow me to file complaints and make it clear that it is violation of women’s rights.
Billionaires have their way of circumventing the law and this is outnumbering people with sheer mob might. And saying that old people should have fewer votes, the children should have fewer votes.
My patience is strained to the hilt


I would request the support of the Indian central govt and not in a creepy, desperate social science experiment where again all my progress over the last 15 years are wiped out for this worthless low rent Facebook like trash
Go take over Ambani’s or Adani’s apartments. Don’t destroy a green space in an urban jungle and

I don’t find it cute and like students learning but creepy and parasitic. Except my best friend from grad student (i trust my ex husband ans my main mentor but they are white and American and would not understand India. If you are Indian American or an NRI you have no business deciding for me.

I remain on the left. But left doesn’t mean this bs.
I have realized how important personality is to not perceptions but the realities of politics.
This would be a disaster if not shut down and deleted immediately in India and this road shut off for all but minimal traffic given the horrifying extractive, non consensual torture of the last 15 years.
This is why Facebook should never be allowed to bring its disgusting unmoderated ways into the real world.
I am filing allegations of stalking, harassment ans misogyny against the local hospitals, any schools or press/


I choose who or what I work with. I am a free woman. By best friend is the closest person who can consent on my behalf were I smeared as incapacitated when it is the brain damage of just enough info to destroy one’s peace of mind and no more.
I am not going nuts on the perpetrators. But some serious complaints with future professional and other repercussions for all participants I found particularly malicious is a minimum.
There is a lot of misogyny in this. I am no Karen or girlboss. But this was callous and spiteful in the extreme.
To harass someone for 5 years as they are recovering from the death
Yeah in sheer numbers I cannot beat you worldwide misery wise in a world with such stark inequality and this much war, religious indoctrination and bad science breaking the limits of l growth by turning me and my family into a milch cows for substandard trash and trying to slander us (probably). I don’t need to see it. I already know it is trash and I am filing complaints.

But unlike the genuinely noxious local misogynists of this state and their enablers I will be restrained and minimal. I am on the left but I don’t but a subset of the most brainless and annoying Indian left.
I watched a movie called “I am not okay” and those guys remind me of that or the central character in “Beef Season 1”. Empty and needing a cause or a gripe.
I have seen real activists who want things to get better. This is greed and smash and grab or some sort of deep emptiness or outdated narratives based on lack of family planning, bullshit jobs as development, no regard for environment, Yimbyism.
You don’t know the people I deal with. This is not the poor or any religious minority btw.
I know the type well.


I am well to the left and I don’t like “sensible” people like The Atlantic or Jay Kaspian Kang.
But I do like the eye of a canny conservative sometimes. Richmal Crompton or Herman Wouk come to mind. It is not political.
It is like my own science profs not of the SFI or MiT Media Lab bullshitter type.

The type of liberal or left science teacher of the right kind who can see through bs.
A left without such people will have to listen to conservative frauds like those Welcome creeps being “sensible”.

This type of “left” is like the character Barney Greenwald caricatured in the Caine Mutiny. The sort of bogus pretentious marxist (Freddie DeBoer, Leighton Woodhouse, Casey Phillips etc come to mind) who is perfect for total frauds like Pinker, Haidt or Suhel Seth (a creep I was just watching on tv).
I think they should all fight to death.


I have mixed feelings about my own “alignment” with Captain Queeg (ffs..better than Trump I suppose..I identify a lot with Trump..mostly the lack of knowledge and skills, but I would like to change that).

But if I cooperated here in India it would not be with some random. A billion people but among unknown people I can think of 3 people (with Madhav Gadgil gone) who struck me as decent: Rohit Chopra, Hemanth Kappanna and Tejas Thackeray.
I am only middleclass and I cannot afford this. It was one giant scam. This would reinforce the dimwitted paranoias of crackpots who would all see left or right drivel. I see mercenary tech cos and a set of fraudulent humans and no.


I like the Current Affairs and Yasha Levine left. Well I like Nathan Robinson, Alex Skopic, Stephen Prager, Ciara Moloney, Sam Miller Macdonald, Briahna Joy Gray and Marina Bolotnikova (minus Vox). But they aren’t even local. Deb Olin Unferth writes for something else.
A world of 8 billion people and I find a few who make any sense outside science and medicine.

Adam Becker gets it:

https://arstechnica.com/culture/2025/04/youre-not-going-to-mars-and-you-wont-live-forever-exploding-silicon-valleys-ideology/

This experiment was a crass failure and it is trying to break the limits of growth, denial of overpopulation and this crass new industry of influencers and other people with in data or ai with no real jobs.

I would request the Indian central govt and rhe new state govt to shut this down and cordon ofg this street and space for further encroachment and end this Black Mirror’s crocodile.
These are my break dates: Dec 2011- May 12, 2026. I am recovered and I will finish this paper and recover my health and carefully and deliberatively file all applicable complaints the day I can. I am not trigger happy.
I had mostly wanted to let it go because it is so lame. But one person is dead and I lost 15 years come December 2026. May 31, 2027 is my self set deadline and I want to switch to work mode.
This is entirely illicit and not in my head and I am filing complaints
I request the Indian govt to end this immediately and support a citizen over scammy tech companies and various misogynistic Uriah Heeps. For all his compassion Dickens distinguished Uriah Heep from most of the struggling people he wrote about with affection.
Too see humans as a monolith is not lack of bigotry.
I don’t care about what the right believes though it would be nice if conservatives were saner about the role of religion and regulation and science and above all environmental issues and if the left would kick out outdated dogma and address overpopulation/population explosion instead of ignoring it and mining the earth and people like me and my mom more and more and more.
I am asking you seriously to please shut this down.
I can’t make you and ignore the hyperbole from earlier posts..shitposting. But it is not right.
Please don’t do this.
Thanks.

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This was an extremely unpleasant period and with just trickle down infonomics and what felt like a constant interrogation. My last workplace was super aggressive and after that isolation, bullying and slander, it is okay. It would be petty I guess..whatever.
But then years of this gaslighting and harassment here. I usually follow Current Affairs, DU (though this my last post because I like reading but not commenting. I prefer to never stray outside my field except donations or ..Support Population Balance! And Farm Sanctuary and the Humane League!), Salon Mag (Troy Farah and Chauncey DeVega mainly and many of their other writers-Spillde, MacFarland), Yasha Levine, Ed Zitron, Matt Stoller and Lucien Greaves. I will stick to donations mostly.
But I recently added The Forward/Arno Rosenfeld to the roster because they are one of the least judgemental magazines I register these days as someone wearied by constant interrogation and criticism and dismissal for not having a cultish affiliation to..I am anti-war and I care deeply about science…But it is impossible to coexist with the rot-the humans behind the ai from Dec 2011 to now.
These pieces are kinda soothing in these war torn times when a segment of the “left” with no connection to anything and no stake appears to just like to rile all sides up, Influencers I think. Yasha pointed it out and I .yeah it is an unequal society but harassing “teh libs” from the left is not righteous:
https://forward.com/culture/823984/interfaith-calligraphy-muslim-jewish/

https://forward.com/news/819244/future-is-peace-aziz-abu-sarah-maoz-inon/

It reminded me of this:

https://www.currentaffairs.org/news/bitter-root

A lot of people of all races, religions etc are just trying to get by you know:

https://www.salon.com/2026/05/12/trying-to-heal-democracy-one-conversation-at-a-time/
Unfortunately no one takes climate change seriously or our other numerous ecological crises. It is my last post outside my field. I like to follow strict rules once I switch back into professional drag:

https://www.currentaffairs.org/news/staring-at-the-pointing-hand

https://www.christopherketcham.com/

It is not as if it is not a strain on both sides when influencers bully people into behaving like them - loud, noisy, indelicate. People are different. A subset of the vociferous are legitimate activists who will go on to make a difference. The others will have been the most obnoxious and then go work at MacKinsey while saying “I used to be left and then i learnt”. Oh okay so you used to be a jerk claiming that was left and now pragmatic.
It is personality and just straining/goading quiet people is hideous.
I used to fake a thick skin to get by. I cannot anymore. Too jarring.
I am skeptical a lot. Including of myself re getting stuff together and this was a huge strain. I appreciate my mentors’ patience with me. And I will try now. But I am sick of all this and filing complaints.

I want some goddam peace and quiet..It is those damn influencers. Social media and a lot of the net is a failure and a nuisance. Time to quit while behind..

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1) None of this has anything to do with my field; 2) I don’t want to forget the first 33 years of my life and 3) I cannot emphasize this enough-a) it is not in my head and b) I do not buy it.

I am not a very good scientist, but I do know where to look for facts and people to trust maybe because of that.

This does not look sustainable and one of the reasons I am so mad is that you will keep fooling politicians who are not as savvy as Sheldon Whitehouse or Elizabeth Warren and you keep selling these scams from inside the system that off scams outside and I am in the crosshairs of this garbage heap from Idiocracy and I keep mimicking you because I don’t understand how anyone confuses two distinct things- being a slacker or stoner on your own time in private and pissing off your own employers and lab and this delusional attempt to commodify stuff that cannot be commodified.


If I didn’t have attention issues severe enough that I cannot tune out bona fide nuisances.
I would follow a template of safety or something if such a thing existed.

But you keep changing things and I don’t trust you to be competent and you bullshit and puff a lot but you have a narrow and stupid worldview.

You keep ascribing your lens on the world to me and what I have been trying to say is that I don’t have that lens because it would be stupid. I usually assume whoever is geographically closest will be the biggest damn nuisance.

I feel a very harmonious diss is being misunderstood.
And another thing is, I don’t think men are sensitive to how an isolated woman sees the world. Women who watch all this are unlikely to be as well.

Most of the conflict in my life comes from breaking things. If I have to

I think you all make a lot of noise and are very annoying but we can totally not get along and ideally you face serious repercussions and I come out okay.

And that is.

I don’t take you seriously. The head of the microscopy facility was an adult. I don’t understand this..

It is clear that no one will take responsibility and everyone will blame other people’s issues and non profits and so on.
I don’t want anything to do with this or you.

You could not not have known and on top of that if unljke my best friend ..anyway this crowd in my state in India, I am filing a criminal case against.

And I am filing misconduct and malpractice allegations. Going all the way back to the Indian male stalker in the black t-shirt with AIG writtten on it in Chennai in July or August 2014 when I went there to abandon that green card- nevrr wanted a marriage greencard. I had asked my mentor to renew my postdoc H1B but he asked me to apply for a greencard and so I didn’t want to get into why I consider a marriage greencard demeaning and not very consistent with women’s liberation. But social awkwardness kept me from saying that.
I am over social awkwardness.

I am filing complaints about all of it.

The management school creep from the second place I stayed at in the Fall of 2011. The city where the first family I stayed with rented space to me. They were okay. Decent people but not people whose instincts I would trust an inch outside the routine. The sexual harasser/holographer from 2014; The creepy indian doctor from 2010 in the south.

I just find it lame when you see patterns like this group or that. That is pathetic.

I think you are all unique nuisances whose precious snowflake like unique nuisance value should be understood.

This is cheap low rent comedy and it can never be a product.

Language and context have stoped confusing me.
You will piss off so many people that I think it is highly (pun!) likely that I can get people like Hemanth Kappanna or similar to believe me. And people like Madhav Gadgil or Tejas Thackeray. People like Yasha Levine, Ed Zitron, Chris Ketcham, Arno Rosenfeld.

The vegan lady locally. I have mixed feelings when women are aware of this. If they are like me surely they want to go MeToo immediately. I did. If they are not like me, no.

And I have become worn down over time into accepting that convincing the least despicable of these bros- no it is totally friendly and positive..

It is not a problem with decent low power men or decent men.
A subset of these guys - it is like some sort of ..

It is not the guys I am going to straight up file charges against. It is not harmless men.

But this in between type that is not involved and can process apparently some kind of alpha female or competent enough or a camgirl or a mental case and as far as I can tell since I am none of those, best case would process me as a housecat (feral cat really) or a child.

i was shooting for housecat. Very few perverts out there.
I make teh joke. It is okay since it is all very serious and all I am really worried about is ..oh this..war of economic attrition.

There is potential here if the Indian state clampsdown on all these harassers in India. If you drove down this street or continue to, it is not gangstalking, it is an illicit encroachment.

I will come out and risk saying this. I have a meeting point with the type of males I was talking about. I am not your daughter etc. I already have a dad and find it hard to communicate with him.


This is a pointless nuisance and you guys do..this is not as difficult as some things.

I am taking a leap of faith here. It sounds lame and fake and I may not be able to pull it off. But I take my work portfolio seriously and don’t like people looking at it.

I am ashamed of having common ground with bosses and Type As because they put people off work. I liked this postdoc in my main lab because he used to work really hard without disgusting me.
This exhibitionism of “I work 2 million hours every second”..this PanOpticon is built by idiots who keep failing to get that it doesn’t matter.
When people see them, except other sociopaths no one will like them.

It is why except the maliciously stupid no one hates Dr Fauci or scientists or doctors in general. This Si Valley boss versus this trashy mob bro- this is a battle from hell that will deplete us all.
And I would not be rude or cold etc unless you may not get it.

The war is on your and my attention and one of economic attrition and
Don’t send your kids into this etc. In a foreign country to muck around and get mired.
This should be handled locally by the decent police clamping down on all movie industry and gaming encroachment, all crass hospitals.

And what I am trying to tell you is you gotta understand human behavior inspite of the net.

I don’t leave reality or get confused about who I am. But who I am dealing with 😭

Good god. Because you are not even involved and don’t hate me.
I am totally neutral.

My bias is geographical. And it is about who I can take on using in perfectly decent ways whatever biases exist where they can be used - animal behavior.
But there is no left or right point and you cannot turn this into anthropology etc.

I selected four reporters. None of whom would have prejudices and none of whom would discount your views. I don’t.
But you cannot expect me to try to follow your rule books or pretend “i dont even exist and am a sad loser”
No. I just like plain fare in science and this was a mistake because these guys love these defective machines and insist it is Gigo rather than accept the kind of clean and high end (the other high!) lab space that Stanford, MIT, IIT, The Ivy League, Facebook, Google etc are legitimately too inferior to build.

It sounds like this petty diss. Its not. They don’t seem to get that economics is not a hard science and gaming people is not gonna work.
You cannot keep getting rid of regulators ans insisting like people who insist that wet markets are culture (they are not. They are like factory farms) that your permacrisis is not the job the US and Indian states and Facebook, Google, Tata, Reliance etc to clean up not mine.

If I allowed this at all, maybe Germany. Not the nazi parts. Like that Prof Mouritsen.
This stuff is rubbish. It may be a jaded and negative perspective but those are needed!
You are too bullish and scientists are too polite.

Even I made some haphazard attempts to .well I was just waiting. Now I think the time is right but if this entrenches further that means more worthwhile jobs will go making room for gig work and.
I owe Current Affairs and Yasha Levine for being people I can trust like DU to distinguish between internet crap and reality and to understand economics and to help my low self esteem in hard science alone to not keep me from recognizing the serious obligations I have to other scientists.
Its an AHA moment. Adam Mackay.
But till this crowd in india whoever were involved between April 2012 and now gets shut down and the whole illicit thing shutdown and taken for complaints/
I owe it to my oncologist, my medical mj co, my medical mj doctor (one ot two people my pharmacist aside who actually helped).


I have a few wrap up notes.

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Immediately, but safely. The thing is one person died. I don’t buy these things I see as valid sousveillance, tests or non-existent.

It cannot be expanded or go on with more lousy cottage industries. Only anyone who is sure that I won’t blame them can work here. And it is the state’s job to clean up not cover up.
I am not threatening anyone.

I am trying to explain. Do not pretend that I need that explained. I wanted it shut down rather than spun out. It has no potential at all.

And this abuse of metaphor.. Jt is not in my head or a mental condition.
It was a hard no from the time I was inducted without formal informed consent.


Look you may have some wacky ways. You cannot go around randomly dragging some catlady going about her own life (1984 reference yes).

You keep thinking that prejudice is the only reason someone rejects things. That’s projection. I see people you might consider “not fancy” in the global south or anywhere and I think with relief “not a nuisance”.
Whereas many of the..rich or poor, black, white, asian etc, whatever religion (I actually have a positive bias towards muslims and white Christians..really most groups who are not Indian male Hindus typically because people take the most liberties with those they perceive as “ingroup”. But I also found most Indian male Hindus decent. It is these demagogues polemicists who insist that in every situation only the dynamics most conflcit prone should be focused on. One benefit of having no culture but blah and not being very haughty or a princess..at arm’s length! Everyone is a “princess” if you pile on this much and then try to invert it and then .. I am some kind of moron magnet by now. I can’t afford that).

These guys are idiots. They think one is. It is very malicious to ascribe mental illness where none exists because predators see ill people as weak and over time fighting predators all the time makes you weak and ..
And by the time they see you are not ill you are some kind of test case of blackmailing agents.

My own brain finally cracked it solo looking at helpful things which are helpful as in i follow people I find helpful as my brain can clean off the bs and see how someone I understand would think.


I request the Indian state- the parts that had no connection with this to shut off this space immediately till i can get back into reality formally to file complaints.
And no - procedurally if you did all this.. I am still wrapping up a paper from 2008. It is not about ai. It is about what human brains learn when they are coddled over and over as they break other people’s shit without consent or consequences.

I am a reasonable woman. I am not a fool.
I get that you really like machines. I like microscopes. I think microscopes are amazing. I think the dullest kind of ai is cool.
But this is - all I pick up on is entertainment and gaming and pointless spooking and communications and politics and bs as press when

Each of the four journalists I selected I did because they remind me of my colleagues in science. Yasha had a wikileaks occupy phase which I flag as “young male jackass” a type I am thoroughly sick of. “Shju” will be the sole survivor that way. Idiot. I am filing complaints against the rest especially if
If you don’t help shut this down and glumly as I glumly clean up my shit without feeling like a boss..(fucking lunatics..seriously even I am better..which is very bad for me since the people i have to go up against for work will be nothing like this when they are people i respect and like. Friendly competition with people I respect and just avoiding annoying people is my thing).
I am strict about who I engage with because once I extend the system of trust, I don’t want to gripe and nitpick. Gotta conserve energy mak.

And treating the commons as this imaginary space was a bad idea.
You gotta process me as a sane scientist people. And environmental issues lead to other issues. Madhav Gadgil, Henrik Mouritsen, Tejas Thackeray or Kirsten Staad yes. Brian Verelli (yimby) and other similar types no. R K Pachauri (creep)-hell no.

Just giving examples.

This has to stop. As Troy Farah put it - parallel economies. Hard no to Emily Topping and Rishi Mittal and Chinese cars.
Those are metaphors.
My poor brain.

I am not bragging. But I seriously don’t understand how you have the dumbest types of biases. That would make life in this especially hard. I stay far from spaces where a fight can turn into one with identity politics. So when things get uncivilized since i will never take help from anyone i scope out where conflicts will remain about the right things which is that you are bad at science and an encroaching nuisance.

Yasha is old now. He is no longer Wikileaks etc. I am very fond of Yasha - I like finding people different from me who are cool.
I process Greens as the actual home team (that is why I liked Tejas) so I don’t see how they can help in this human-animal conflict .

I struggle with communicating with brainless meninists. He should help me out where they are only brainless as I am filing complaints. He seems like a people person.

As for other women, I found out that going openly full on MeToo will trigger the meninist aside every man and send you to the loony bin.
Yeah these male turds took me hostage.
But they are crazy -joke! Not with the bike creeps but the meninist inside all.
Hey calm down!
Yes mockery! Friendly mockery!

They have access to all sorts of pathetic lame shit they can use to make you look crazy and unemployable and they will do it too.

And someone would mimic them and use jargon and clunkily do things whereas -Planet Midnight more than Smile. It’s pathetic.
All pop culture refs. Its highschool. It’s someone else’s lens.
Someone really stupid.


I always go back to Prof Guildea. My mom told me about it. When I was a child. I remembered it in 2009? as “How love came to Prof MacGillicuddy”.
But actually it was Guildea. A site called gaslight.ca that no longer exists.
A child would be frightened by this bullshit.

It was scary. I have never seen these many stupid humans in my life. These people are just parasitic on other humans.


I find stupid people scary. Especially in large numbers. They see the dumbest things. Lucien Greaves gets it. They insist on forcing you to see reality as they see it. Blame shifting, the buck never stops with me, all or nothing,
The stupid right aligned person is invariably scarier than the stupid left aligned person and overtime that difference tips things to this billionaire (right) vs a bunch of warring mob clans and the civilized woman is like “Not Sure” in Idiocracy. Hey i tried Diplomacy-not the game that stupid Facebook ai won. The concept. And I am considering “tough indifference” instead.

I was not sure I would file complaints till now. But as I see or read the human faces behind this I am sure I will go to the police.
It should not be such a hair on fire thing


The narcotics war isn’t going to fly and the creep who drove loudly down 3:48 pm isn’t outing my location. I am sending a message to the Centre and State that if these guys are not caught and charged India’s industry and everything will suffer more.
All indians who migrate would be painted with the same brush.
This worthless illicit thinh should entirely be reported, shut down and serious misconduct, malpractice and harassment charges filed.

I will ensure that I do that. And I am confident because all this has convinced me that there ia no there there-not scientific, no popular support, nothing..
I will be surprised that I ever forgot or doubted that

Yeah I never took anything but my field seriously. The rest is a filler to block out one’s (entirely private) miseries about 41 years of education leaving one still mostly like Cunk.
And now a collection of douchebags know:
https://www.quantamagazine.org/to-pay-attention-the-brain-uses-filters-not-a-spotlight-20190924/

These methods were creepy and stalkerish.
I cannot doubt my success re filing complaints and getting them to stick.
Adios idiots. Don’t pick fights with me.
It is a waste of my time. They churn you dipshits out by the billion. I am special!
Helloooooo its Indian Karen..can I get tech support to help with anti-creep vaccines?
No don’t bother with the reputation bs.
I am mocking this as it is garbage. Everyone ever voluntarily associated with it and even worse the pile ons should be ashamed of themselves but they won’t. Too stupid.

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When I first came across notions like “mind reading” I was flummoxed because I didn’t bother with trying to figure out how it would work etc.
I find that so silly and childish. Like you are on a game show when the biggest violation of the system of trust is ongoing.

My mom had a boss who was a sexual harasser and an asshole. He used to call her into his office and show her porn pics silently while talking about work. So if someone passed by it would be this mundane work talk but she would see this. People used to think my mom was this very buttoned down Indian woman and she was for all practical, material purposes. But she had a sense of humor and she was pretty hardy and she told me that he seemed to think that it would shock her to grasp that porn exists, when what shocked her was his behavior.

This is all these guys. They want to move tbe convo to my mental health or work ethic or personality. Whereas what is shocking is that all the i dotting and t crossing and these alarming depradations are just rolled out with different industries from worthless tech to gaming and entertainment.

A problem I have with the left I like is that they double down on this oppressor narrative that assumes these lame people who are clearly inferior at reality monitoring get to grab everything ans hand it to some lame people with vocational skills or “we” waste time in drama and theatre instead of going to as many sane police and authorities and getting the real power of different kinds of honesty not to keep this fabric of bullshit going but people who actually get our interconnectedness the normal dull way intuitively fast to shut down these tech creeps. But if they race ahead we can still..
And small

Not with tonnes of people. We can tell them later. More chaos helps Facebook and Google/
And you can all fight about who is more awesome later/ yeesh. Are you out there? Do you see this? These guys are idiots/

Whether you are local or american, help a sister out idiots. Different set of idiots. Not the creeps.
I am sending out a distress signal to the not stupid. Help! I am surrounded by idiots and some assholes think I am a housecat and they seem like corrupt security who will spin this all as white hatting.



My main mentor was awesome. Very grounded These people are all idiots who drag you into their bs while safely keeping their rears covered and expecting you to prostrate yourself for common decency after their mistakes.
Fuck em.

I wilm do the real, non histrionic thing that is exact and accurate.
How would lies and bullshut serve me/

People don’t engage in misconduct and lies because you cannot build on a foundation of bullshit and while pretending that common sense and a reasonable person is a completely imaginary concept unless it serves.
Bah humbug.
Idiots..No soup for them.
Dimwitted tats.

I am bloody well sick of this. If they want to do their drivel in their lanes they can. You trespass on my turf-any of it and I am taking it to the police.
But I will dial it down a notch because ..Jane Eyre.
Maybe these stupid creeps should read a book once in a while.
I cannot think of a worse penance than my actual thoughts tumbling out of my head. It would go the way of Right-Ho Jeeves.
These fuckers will all find a common enemy.

They are all really fucking stupid and angry because the catlady is refusing to pay for a third kid, a fourth kid, one more apartment, a third car, a swimming pool and on and on.
Keep your disgusting male creep parasite mitts off my parents’ pension and healthcare and away from me.
I am filing stalking and harassment allegations. Bringing in more creeps will ensure that the state officials who didnt barricade this will face charges.
I rely on a civilized not trash out of Si Valley or Meninistan/
Really not in the mood..

Well okay fine, if a lefty/liberal atheist women’s libber (celebrities say feminist) scientist’s internal monologue of loathing spills out..
This is bullshit. If you actually talked to the kinds of people I follow who tend to be low power but not daft, some kind determination to be oppressed aside, they are reasonable and saner.
Yeah one has “utopian” wishes and can translate that to honest practicality

Not this si valley bs. No one who radiates flannel is actually nuts.
This is a con one can see through.

I fall into the intersection of Scientist, Non cornucopian Green, Atheist and civilized and enlightened. The diplomacy is for crazies.

I really can’t stand these Stanford student types nor these local creeps. It is the clash of two loathsome types of different kinds but kinda the same. None of these people have any positive qualities and they get po if you notice.

I got it when I was watching that woman in Beef. Because I honestly cannot read the mind of that type of person and this thing is full of them. And I have a love hate relationship with my last mentor.
There is nothing worse than being Norbert Weiner’s dad and then learning how to be “humane” from TED and Pinker. I can barely stand the first. The second is garbage and in combination with

Who are these people? Everyone normal would hate all of them. Why am I the scapegoat?
I don’t know about in the abstract, but I am pretty damn sure that I could defeat thus crowd in any likability contest because they break things, have no lives (not as lame people say it 😤 ..
I share no values with them and yeah they may evolve into someone not utterly crass, shallow, brainlessly materialistic,

These people are pathetic. Pentland, Waber, Thrun, Fei Fei Li, almost all of Hai, the MiT Media Lab, Pinker, Haidt and they are successful verisons of many such sad and lonely people I feel no empathy for at all.
I see people driven crazy by this society abd avoid them

But these are genuinely empty people. They cannot stand silence as they would be forced to look at the hole inside.
Its not the same as not hating people while not wanting to see people or spend yime with people

You cannot be a yimby here. Go take space from ambani and i am filing a criminal case

I dont reactive trash in my house
I love my solitude. It is the one thing I love.
I am pressing charges

Killing my mom and then for 5 years sending these hateful stalkers here.
I am pressint charges but they will stick if I flip bavk immediately. The window of neurogenesis is not small but there are critical points where I big leap can be attempted.
I shitpost a bit while searching for how to communicate with people I thoroughly dislike and distrust.
But I am sane and aware.
And I am serious about filing complaints.


I don’t care about this garbage heap I made over the last 15 years. Its who you are on the inside!
I hate you and cheerfully. That js who I am on in the insude

Those creeps at Facebook Googke etc should neverbe trusted (especially upper management). They are disgusting human beings.
And Prof Hennessy should be ashamed of himself for bringing all this into academic science. He is the only person I ever saw associated with Google who seemed like a bonafide scientist and educator and ..
He is unreadable so I cannot see why he..yeah he doesnt seem that bad. Which is good because he probably hired my horrible mentor whom I support in between prolific rants. I just wanted a normal job ffs.
That place is low rent.
I am not even fancy! Thats how low rent it is.
If it was medium trashy (ie non commodified normal human trashy..well it is too late to pretend to not even understand that..)
But it is seriously trashy and tries to exploit permacrises or avoid responsibility.
Not cool
And i am communicating through a media filled witj people at various stages of grappling with their own relationship with the net, reality etc and I wish them joy of that. I hope they survive
But i gotta get out immediately

This was so not worth it.


Brains

When i first came across all this i was frustrated that language, facial expressions (micro expressions)- all this low rent junk that Alex Pentland, the MIT Media Lab, Affectiva, lie detector shills etc peddle will be taken as “the truth”.
And yeah left responses about justice etc. I am on the same team but you guys keep taking bait from conservatives.

And it makes sense to attack them on the science by tossing out this social engineering and getting the people who do real work on board by urgently communicating that - I am not a hog and I don’t think scaling up etc is important or the order of the day. But shutting this racket down
In my state locally I would not trust any of these guys. What I have seen should be shut down by unconnected parts of the Indian state.


This is not a metaphor for Iran, a microcosm of the economy. These frauds and scammers inside and outside are gaming all of us ans they appeal to other idiots. This was a crisis for me throughout and I am going to the police.


When I started thinking about the activation of regions of the brain and got that there is no way these guys can access the inside of one’s head, I again started slowly being able to think prior to this disgusting “three body problem” shit and thought about the parts of your brain that you know must light up in patterns associated with..overload! private joke
I have many with myself. I hate you all. Joke!
Not entirely. No no

I feel this is pleasant and positive where I am not reporting you to the police. My jokes are a bit dark but also totally positive where its not you. It’s definitely not content nor low rent.


If you are really stupid sure. Having pissed off some random who is not a proxy for Iran or Trump.
Most of life is pretty dull. Chauncey DeVega got that.
My conflict is with scammers inside and outside and all the autocrats only care when the scammers are sure to get away with it and give them a cut.
Being all the way over here and when one govt has just gotten voted out and before the next comes in is a moment of opportunity.

If this continues the next govt will also be implicated. I am not suicidal and I don’t buy this. Alex Skopic is corregt. The left is right early.


I need to convince the most important people relevant to this to safely shut this down.
These methods used as they are without the rare original source that could frugally/

Randoms cannot do it. It takes talent and I appreciate that talent. And when it is usef by the untalented, that’s missing the point.
Mimics..yuck and hacks.

You can’t steal it. That is true. But you can degrade it and make it worthless. I see nothing but low rent shit. And it is less subjective than you think.
Money, stuff, materials..thats real. You had no permits for this and it makes it a criminal illicit undertaking
Worse using marijuana use etc extortionately doesnt make it this cute “a child can heal the world!”
No there is reason age, expertise etc over some trashy startup some douchey billionaire backs counts.

This was so worthless. All of it. Like AshRedux-bless their soul- one is confounded trying to grade this rot ..because it js disparate trash but all trash.
Come on fellas - take a joke!
Its supposed to be all thick skinned or something very positive no?


I got a headstart and today as much as I had a hunch that having gone on metformin it would be a bad idea for my mom to go off it, I seriously need those out there acting in good faith to believe me that what I see here in India in this state and saw throughout is a racket that should be shut down and all the participants alone brought to book.

I am hopeful we are at a point where enough people who know would back that for this location and ymmv for yours. But I know this one was a hub of fraud with no real products or services or inferior ones.

I am open to accepting all errors in my perception thanks to the skepticism after IRB protocols and informed consent where thrown away. I forgive it as the best people at those trashy elite schools (they are not elite like Dr Fauci elite. They are elite like Google and Facebook).

They will keep spinning out and fearmongering till we are all as financially bankrupt as they are morally bankrupt.
Yes in “Yellowjackets” or “Lord of the Flies” mode which most of us are far from yeah sure..if you were Julia or Winston. But we are nowhere there. Yeah …infinity is conceptually real, sure deep inside one there may be some overlap with a dirtbag.

We are nowhere there. But I won’t argue about shit science anymore. I am not insane and my personality is fine. This is not my terrain and I won’t adapt or adjust to it.
For an analogy the tech creep would get when Apple offered the optout everyone picked that. It is lack of choice.

And no i am not doing an ad for Apple, but the two people from Apple India I spoke to over the phone were civilized and unlikely to.. there have to be people locally..
I am a little wary of the nicer tech people and

I try to conceal it as women do reflexively. Hey i am no Karen or boss. How would you like it if I came and took all your stuff, called you low iq and or insane? I mean come on.
And many people like being on tv etc. I think if I was on tv being 100% super awesome as I see it okay. But that being unlikely I would rather not.
There? Crass enough to be believable.

I don’t think we enjoy the same kind of trash. I already like trashy things ..just in private. Safer trash.

From 2011 i have lost the ability to read minds. Thats why i sound off. How can this abomination possibly exist unless something insidiously disgusting has wrapped its ugly claws around some minds which are ineptly trying to take over all of reality?

I do have private gripes with portions of the scientific community. It is okay to like scifi but this was a scam. I do feel betrayed and then forced to think about idiotic crap.
I hate you all! Play fewer video games and take a walk in the woods commie!

Anyway this is a matter for the police and until industry has criminal liability against tech, entertainment and gaming companies enforced this tragedy of the commons approach forcing things no one would buy like metaverses
And it is malicious to misrepresent as tis And luddites people who say, you cannot just grab my property and call me paranoid and deflect to whether moonvertising is possible.

I am not a conspiracy theorist on Facebook. I am a woman who thinks roe v wade literally and what it represents matter more than some trashy llm. Deeply misogynistic.
So don’t expect the psychiatric malpractice to fly/
I am not a nutter. There was never any real implied consent and there never will be. Show me and tell me because I don’t trust you and never will.
My main mentor did not even want me to take that job and my two friends knew nothing about it and the only other friend I made didn’t seem enthusiastic and overworked doctors like oncologists should not be dragged in.

I am really sick of this. Any continuing encroachment or refusal to acknowledge and shut this down won’t end well. It will drag it on for another 10 years.

I am pressing charges. Charges for stalking, harassment and causing real loss of time while using bogus rationales.
There has to be a parallel path. Yeah it will be more popular with everyone but the criminally corrupt and stupid -

i am filing complaints.
This place needs to be cordoned off like a crime scene because that is what it is.
You are delaying the inevitable by not letting the info go through..

I am not entitled or ..well okay I am not as stupid as most of you but ..oh well.
You seem to have a moral vacuum inside and it is not my problem.
Harjinder Singh is not a role model. He should do hard time as should this entire crew.

After this much gaslighting and irresponsibility i cannot distinguish regular traffic (except where it deliveries to this street) from stalking, harassment, malpractice, misconduct and criminally illegal encroachment and construction. Sainik Farms better than Sangam Vihar any day. Sorry not in the mood for faux populism. But really neither rather get permits and do things properly.
I am sorry that if people understood all but scammers would prefer my choices. But don’t do this.
I will have to formally allow this and it is a hard no.

I am filing allegations of harassment, misogyny, malpractice and attempts to intimidate, extort etc. Those are educated guesses and i will back down the minute i see proof of legitimacy.
Till then this lane should be shut off as a health and safety hazard for me and you as i will end up flagging it all as criminal misconduct where some of it is normal oblivious stuff. Any sound engineering is parasitic encroachment.
Shut it all off and pull out please.






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59. Pondering

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May 14, 2026
10:24 pm: bah..humbug..idiots..read minds my butt..convoluted bullshit.
Those people are all crazy…trying to rope ol’jfz9580m into their driveling rubbish. Elite crackpots, bullshitting frauds and morons. I’ll give them a Ulysses they can stuff up their butts. As if regular science and life aren’t hard enough. Bah..all bs.

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60. Updates

May 14, 2026

Updates

I am filing complaints (criminal harassment; stalking; sexual harassment; psychiatric malpractice; misconduct in data science/human subject research/ai research).

I am pretty much recovered and both for society and science broadly and my own sake (I don’t exactly thrive around acceptable or outright scams) ensure that my allegations are water-tight.

It is not that hard.

It is a hard no wrt anything that would have shocked or alarmed me circa 2008 or any prior period.

I do not recognize Google/Facebook or the kinds of doctors or scientists who work closely with them as colleagues or physicians of repute. And that applies to any similar small or large business.
And everything I have seen in my state here in India for the most part is outright harassment, stalking, misogyny and misconduct.

I was not myself between Dec 2011 - May 2026.
For legal purposes I will set these as my break dates: Dec 2011 May 14, 2026.

This area should be closed off immediately as a crime scene where illicit construction occurred. I will say what was acceptable and not. These are not the Middle Ages and this won’t fly.
I cannot lose more work days. I refused to get mired with tech and tech adjacent projects that are just. Just no.